Dispite what everythings caused, Im still looking forward to the MEAN night out :D

Yano, Just as i come to peace with most things or people in my life,

More drama and bullcrap starts up again.

Why can't the world just be simple. Have no problems, no worries.

i wish everything would just stay fine.

Mainly i wish there was no such thing as jealousy.

It screws up everything it comes in contact with, girlfriends being jealous when somethings to close to their man, friends when their not the attention of the day or when one friend gets a new friend the old one becomes jealous. Its stupid and i wish it never exsited.!

Im not saying these things apply to me (maybee just the bf thing :P) but i see alot of jealousy everyday. I also have to put up with the effects . . .

. . .

i truely didnt think it would ever come to this.
all i can say is fucking PATHETIC PATHETIC PATHETIC!

Relationships are over rated.

Im hoping and praying things get better, Cause i can't breath without you.

I don't usually write blogs about what im doing but . . .
My parents are out, so im home alone EXTREMLY BORD!
haha The weather is crap, so i can't even go for a walk.
I just finish putting together Kristins && my Mums birthday presents for tamo.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BOTH! :D
I also just printed of a copy of my CV to post away tamo.
Im sooo desprate for a job! I want to be able to by stuff for myself instead of my boyfriend paying for everything hahahaha

ARRRGGHHH HELP!

GRRRRR! i need a job !

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”

You said to me one night, don't ever talk to me again, don't ever contact me, don't text me, dont bebo me, just leave me alone. . . Even though you were one of my best friends and it hurt me to agree to those terms, I got the message and have left you alone since that night. I was finally coming to realise it was properly the best thing to go seprate ways. I was getting over the fact we weren't friends. Until the other day . . . .

You decided that it would be ok to approach me again, to pretend nothing ever happened, to pretend you never hurt me. Well . . . its not ok.

Most people could
write a million words

about how great their

boyfriend is.

But for me . . .

There is no words

in my vocabulary

that couldn't even

come close to

discribing you! ;)